four days after back from Houston and San Francisco, still little bit red nose and cheeks after California sunshine, but it is worth as I am a sunny person, endless rain and cloudy weather would cause me depression I guess, just like today, I almost no mood and interest for anything.
Of course my negative emotion also because of his 3 weeks trip to US. One week before I was there, but now it is his turn, and the trip takes that long. I really don't know how to spend next 20 days without him. Sometimes I do not really understand myself, I can be such independent in business, travelling all of world even if just myself, however I am also that dependent, even if one day without his mail, sms, call...it can make me nervous even upset. I am not sure which one is the real me, but I am sure without him, I cannot have a real happiness.
This morning I received a new born baby picture from a customer, it is so so cute boy, when the first sight of that round baby, I have strong feeling that I also want to have a baby like that. When my colleagues saw the photo, one of them feel the boy looks little bit like me especially the expression in the eyes, her words stir my heartstring alot as I dream to have a baby with Hans from quite long time. I can imagine how exciting for both of us when we see our pretty baby at first sight, absolutely it will be the most exciting moment in our lives. I am not sure if my dream can come true, but one thing I am sure that I do need Hans in my life because I feel he is the sunshine to my life.
So now my life sunshine fly to US for three weeks, hope I can spend my cloudy time well.
May 11, 2009
be rich and move to San Francisco
just back from my US trip with my red nose and cheeks after famous California sunshine, feel happy even little exciting after San Francisco. When a city has both mountain and sea, I have to say aboslutely it is a gift by god. You can imagine how great feeling when you live in a house on mountain, while you standing by your window, then the blue ocean just under your feet, guess no one can resist such beautiful and cozy life there.
Guess the California bright sunshine and deep wide ocean make this city more open minded and free life style, you can find all kinds people in SF. Now I agree SF is a heaven for gay, you can easily meet gay in shop, bar, street...They never try to hide their sexual orientation, straight or not is unimportant for them, they don't care what others think about them, they just enjoy their happiness and feeling. I am not lesbian actually, but I find I am really envious of their more or less self-center life as I find I really live too less for myself. The freedom is my impression to SF, I almost can smell it, feel it and see it there in last couple of days, it wakes up something deep in my heart, I hope I can have some SF spirit from now on.
Whole article is only about SF, seems I forgot that big village - Houston, when I memorize there, the impression is: big car, few people, nobody walking and hot weather. Absolutely Houston is not my type, guess I will never go there privately except business trip, but I must go back to San Francisco sooner or later!
Guess the California bright sunshine and deep wide ocean make this city more open minded and free life style, you can find all kinds people in SF. Now I agree SF is a heaven for gay, you can easily meet gay in shop, bar, street...They never try to hide their sexual orientation, straight or not is unimportant for them, they don't care what others think about them, they just enjoy their happiness and feeling. I am not lesbian actually, but I find I am really envious of their more or less self-center life as I find I really live too less for myself. The freedom is my impression to SF, I almost can smell it, feel it and see it there in last couple of days, it wakes up something deep in my heart, I hope I can have some SF spirit from now on.
Whole article is only about SF, seems I forgot that big village - Houston, when I memorize there, the impression is: big car, few people, nobody walking and hot weather. Absolutely Houston is not my type, guess I will never go there privately except business trip, but I must go back to San Francisco sooner or later!
May 04, 2009
my feet are on USA
finally I see my bed in Houston after 20 hours trip, however the room and bed not that attractive, so I do not jump into my bed immediately, instead I sign in MSN and worked for 2 hours and chat with some friends. Large part of them care more about swine flu, however I really have no any feeling of it up to now as almost nobody with mask or talk about it.
Still have no any feeling of Houston and US, all day in the flight or in the car, just see endless highway and buildings, few people really walk or enjoy life outside, absolutely it is not my favorite way of life and city. Tomorrow I will visit exhibition, will see if there is any highlights.
Now I have to go to un-soft bed as my head gets heavy, will change to a better hotel tomorrow, this small ugly hotel is not that matching nice me anyhow$-).
Still have no any feeling of Houston and US, all day in the flight or in the car, just see endless highway and buildings, few people really walk or enjoy life outside, absolutely it is not my favorite way of life and city. Tomorrow I will visit exhibition, will see if there is any highlights.
Now I have to go to un-soft bed as my head gets heavy, will change to a better hotel tomorrow, this small ugly hotel is not that matching nice me anyhow$-).
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